I got back last night from Chicago and spent the day relaxing today. I was with my family and it was totally "vanilla". I had a family member graduating from Navy bootcamp and it was great to see and I am SO proud.
During my time away, I found myself daydreaming quite a bit about spanking & discipline. Replaying scenes that I have had with various people in my head and somewhat re-experiencing them, mentally. It is so nice to have memories of good discipline scenes that I can revisit at will, putting myself back in the moment. Since I don't live near a spanking community, I'm glad that I am able to daydream at moments that I am longing to be punished. My behavior wasn't bad or warranting punishment in any way, I just wanted that feeling of someone caring and keeping me accountable and taking the time to punish me. There's just something about it.