Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Final 3 clips of "Anthea's House Rules" are up!

I've finally finished editing the final 3 scenes of "Anthea's House Rules" and they are now available on my website,  In these clips, you'll find a mouthsoaping, a very firm hairbrush spanking, and also a rulering.

Part 4 - This clip opens with Anthea being scolded for cursing during church.  She is given a mouth soaping and is spanked while standing up.  Then she is marched downstairs for a thorough hairbrush spanking.

Part 5 - Time for Anthea's bedtime spanking for cursing at church.  Ms. Panettiere gives her a firm hand spanking over her pajama bottoms, then white panties, and finally bare bottom.  At the end Anthea sits on Ms. Panettiere's lap and they hug.

Part 6 - It is past Anthea's curfew and Ms. Panettiere is up late worried.  Anthea comes home dressed very unladylike and she is immediately bent over to get swatted with a ruler.  Then she is marched downstairs to get a bare bottomed hand spanking.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Back to the States

Long time no blog!  Well, I'm back to the States and beginning to recover from jet lag, but I'm not yet back home.  I'm writing this from a friend's house in NY and will be back to Kansas on Wednesday evening.  I enjoyed my time in London and it was my very first trip overseas.  I arrived there last Tuesday afternoon, look a nap, ate dinner, then went to bed again- totally fun first day, I know.  Wednesday I had time to sightsee and I had great weather for it.  I hopped on one of those double decker tourist buses which drove around all the attractions and I took a bunch of pics from the bus.  Thursday & Friday were video shoots for a private collector (unfortunately these won't be released to the public though) and I got to meet some wonderful people.  Friday evening I was really feeling the jet lag because I ate dinner twice!  Once during London dinner time and again a little after midnight which would have been dinner time back home.  I was hungry both times and couldn't sleep, so hey what can I say, I just went with it, LOL.  Saturday was the main day that I had set aside to see private sessions and again met some great people.  Finally on Saturday night I slept really good and didn't wake up till 11am the next morning.  I hadn't slept all that great the rest of my stay probably just due to the jet lag I think.  So I had just enough time to pack up and get checked out of the hotel and to the airport.

I always seem to notice kind of "off the wall" types of things.  What sticks out to me is that everybody over there seemed to smell really good, especially the cologne that nearly all the men wore.  Then we have the funny U-turns that many of the drivers made.  What made these funny to me was that they would turn around in the middle of the road with traffic coming both ways.  Then some of the drivers didn't quite get their car turned all the way around so they were then facing the sidewalk blocking traffic and had to put it in reverse to get completely turned around.  This is one thing I greatly regret not taking a picture of because it is hard to explain it without a visual.  But in the States, U-turns are normally only allowed at intersections and it would be unheard of to block both directions of traffic while attempting the turn.  I just thought it was comical- I know, weird sense of humor.  :)

I just cleaned up my travel schedule, removing the trips that have already taken place and boy is it pretty bare now!  Nothing planned after October.  I think I'll take that opportunity to focus on getting head shoots done for mainstream acting and also getting the web design business off the ground.

Saturday, September 11, 2010


Today is September 11th, and I've been thinking about and remembering the tragedy that occurred 9 years ago today.  At the time it happened I was at work, sitting in my cubicle, when I heard my co-workers gasp and shout out.  I stood up and walked to the gathering around a lady's tiny television screen where we silently watched the second plane hit the South tower of the World Trade Center.  Nothing but silence, astonishment, and disbelief.  I cried at the time it happened and I'm crying right now while writing this entry.  Even though I was over 1,000 miles away from NYC, had never visited there and knew absolutely no one there at the time, I was deeply affected and my world stopped while I watched from my tv and listened to the radio and experienced the rush of a plethora of emotions along with the rest of America. 
Now that it has been 9 years since these events, I still think about it, especially this time of year.  Because of the spanking community I now know several New Yorkers and one of these happens to be a very close friend of mine who was directly involved in the recovery efforts.  This person has a difficult time every year around the anniversary, and I wish that I could do something, anything, to take away the pain and sadness that is still felt by this individual.  There are many, many others who still feel and experience the after effects of this unspeakable event, and my heart goes out to all of these people today.  I'm thinking about them and praying for them.

I've never been prouder of my country than I was that day.  I was glued to the news from my apartment in Kansas for several weeks following.  What I saw was tragedy, but also unity.  Politics were gone and in its place was compassion.  There were many heros that day and the days following.

I'm never gonna forget.

Friday, September 10, 2010

"Church Discipline" video released on my website!

I did a trade shoot with Sarah Gregory while we were both at the Crimson Moon party at the end of July, and this is one of the videos we made together.

The idea for "Church Discipline" actually came from my own fantasy stemming from a real-life experience with the Pastor's wife at the church I was attending at the time.  I was 19 years old and had this super big mommy craving at the time.  I didn't get everything that I believed I should get from my own mom so as far back as middle school I began seeking out teachers and other female authority figures to provide me with affection, affirmation, attention, and discipline.

So in comes this particular Pastor's wife, who recognized that I needed a momma and endeavored to provide me with some of the things that I missed out on and longed for.  I would do things to get her attention and usually it was negative attention that I acquired but that was just alright with me.  She scolded me on many, many occasions and that alone really gets into the discipline headspace that I have.  Usually after I'd been scolded I would come home and write as many details down about it as I remembered and then I'd read it over and over again.  She had 6 children of her own, five of which were daughters, and I fell right in between the ages of her two oldest children.  She often told me she loved me and that I was special, and gave me lots of hugs.  All things I desired from a mother-figure.

On one certain occasion, after a church service, I was upset with her about something and used curse words as I was talking to her right in the church lobby.  Right then and there she got "The Look" in her eyes and very sternly told me, "You need to be spanked!"  Let me tell you, that certainly stopped me dead in my tracks.  I was a little scared that she'd actually do it but at the same time really hoping that she would take me inside her office and put me over her knee.  Of course this never happened but I've fantasized about it more times than I can count.  After this incident there were several times it would come up in conversation where she would tell me I needed to be spanked or given a couple swats.  I also wished that her and the Pastor would invite me to live with them for a time and treat me just as one of their own daughters.  I touched on this in Sarah and I's video.

Sarah Gregory and I reenacted my fantasy in a reversed sort of fashion, meaning I played the role of the Pastor's wife and Sarah played "Me".  I thoroughly enjoyed filming this with her and felt that much of my fantasy was able to be portrayed.  Towards the end of the film Sarah cried real tears and I was able to hold her and comfort her while she cried.  Very good and I love it when real emotion and tears are captured on video.

The video starts out with a good scolding because I caught her at the church dance conducting herself very inappropriately and dancing in a provocative manner.  I tell her she needs to be spanked and has needed it for a long time, so I lead her over my knee to deliver a very thorough hand spanking over her skirt, then panties, and bare-bottomed.  Finally she gets a good spanking with the very same hairbrush that I use to spank my daughters with.  She is told that she will be disciplined just like one of my daughters from here on out anytime that she is disrespectful or misbehaves.  I also tell her that I'll be taking her clothes shopping to get something more appropriate for her to wear, and if she wants to she can come stay with me for awhile.  This seems to touch a tender place in her and she begins to cry - this is what she's craved for a very long time.

Please visit to purchase the video clips for this film that is 15 minutes in its entirety.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Preparing to head out to Shadow Lane

Early Thursday morning I will board the plane to fly to Vegas for my 2nd Shadow Lane party.  I'm getting pretty excited for it - meeting people, getting to see friends, and having fun.  It is hard to believe that last year at this time was when I started to get my feet wet with spanking videos.  I met Clare Fonda as I was helping with the setup of the Scony vendor table, and that was when she said that she'd love to shoot with me sometime.  I remember feeling so excited for this opportunity, but not sure where all it would take me.  I've made quite a bit of strides since then:  appearing in several films with Clare, shooting with Chelsea Pfeiffer, Kelly Payne, Ten, Sarah Gregory, Lily Starr, and Mike Billa.

As for shooting at Shadow Lane this year, Richard Windsor will be doing an interview with me and I'll shoot with MikeNV (Fetlife tag).  I may also have the opportunity to shoot with others as time and the opportunities present.  Looking forward to a great time!